Day...what day is it??

Breakfast: 3 eggs, brocolli, mixed nuts
Lunch: spaghetti squash, homemade pasta sauce, bison burger, brocolli, nuts
Midafternoon snack: scallops, califlower, raisins, capers, almonds, mixed nuts
Dinner: spghetti squash, homemade pasta sauce, bison burger, black olives
Late night snack: black olives, grapes, cashews

...think Im never eating brocolli again...it really upsets my tummy...not good for those I sit in class with for over 2 hours...

I really wanted to cheat last night..mostly cause I just don't feel good, not because I'm craving anything. It is weird why I feel that way and I cannot completely figure out why I get that way...it could be cause I'm bored...it is what I'm use to. I've also read an article that stated that women have a hard time dieting sometimes because they don't have the confidence (self-efficacy...lol julie) and self-worth..mostly self worth this article hit on. So basically...women don't complete a diet or "cheat" because the don't feel good enough..and this is a reason ...or one of the reasons...they cheat...and I'm wondering if thats what I'm hitting on here. I say this because I'm justifying the fact that I don't really need to eat so strict..cause I know I can't get by on eating a little bit of junk and not gain weight However..I'm constantly having to take a look at why I want to achieve this and I'm constantly looking at the pros and cons (decisional balance...lol julie!!) and I usually end up not cheating. I'm doing so much better this time around with the Paleo challenge...even though I know its not "perfect." We all have to find what works for us when we do stuff like this. Last time I did this for 30 days I ended up eating pizza twice and a bag of oreos once...and I was constantly cheating with cheese...that was something I did not cut at when I did it last time. I have not done any of the above this time...and am very happy with that. Each time I do something like this I find that I can go a little more strict on myself...and I know that even if I don't..it is "OK" and that I don't need to be so hard on myself.

Since we have been in "exercise adherence" class I am constantly trying to find the skills that I use (cognitive and behavioral) to continually "adhere" to physical activity and nutrition. For me, nutrition is harder and I'm going through more of those processes...at least I'm more consciously aware of them than I am for physical activity. The thing that keeps me going is the fact that I'm modeling for Belle and I desperately want her to eat healthy and thats something I can control in her life and hopefully set some type of foundation that she will eventually go back to it in her life when she strays...I really want her to know the importance of it and how nutrition can effect our mood, sleep, performance..etc.

Anywho..those are just some random thoughts of Shely. I feel very aware of what I'm thinking and I constantly analyze myself to try and figure out why I do the things I do. Because of this...I think this strongly helps the clients I train because it makes them feel human....most people put trainers on a pedastool...but I'm "normal" just like the rest of my clients....